My whole life I've wanted nothing more than to be a mom. When I was little, I would have my childhood best friend babysit my baby dolls for me when I would go out of town. I had to make sure my babies were in good hands of course! I have looked forward to this moment for 28 years. I can't wait.
Getting pregnant was not the easiest journey for us. Unfortunately, I know too many people who have gone through much worse than us trying to get a baby here, but we definitely weren't able to get pregnant as easily as your average couple. It took much longer than expected, but looking back now, it was worth every tear and moment of frustration. Timing is everything, even when the timing isn't what we would initially choose.
Pregnancy has been an interesting, rough and amazing experience. I can honestly say I have experienced a whole new level of nausea I never knew existed, but a big part of me feels grateful every time I'm leaning over the toilet bowl because I know the reason for it is a precious little miracle.
A few years ago, when my friend Melissa was pregnant with her first child, she said something on her blog that really stuck with me. She said something along the lines of she was trying her best not to complain about feeling sick or uncomfortable with her pregnancy because she asked for this and she wanted this. I loved that she said that. I have tried to follow Melissa's example because I too asked for this and wanted this. There were several times during all that time of trying that I would see complaint after complaint on Facebook or blogs from pregnant woman and I would always say to myself that I would give anything to have morning sickness because at least it would mean I had a cute little baby growing inside of me. Now being pregnant, I can definitely see how and why these women would complain, so I don't fault them for it, but waiting so long for a baby to come has definitely given me a different perspective on things. I don't want to take anything for granted. I try to only complain to Josh...haha
Speaking of Josh, he has been amazing these past few months. My love for him has grown to a whole new level. He has been so sweet and patient with me, even though I have turned into the world's most boring wife. I have preferred to stay home most nights for a few reasons. One being the fact that most nights I need to be near a toilet at all times just in case, and another being that I can barely stay up past 10 pm anymore. I can't get enough sleep. He has picked me up random food that sounds good at the time and he gives me my space when I don't feel well. I can't wait to see him with our little babe. He will be so cute.
I am so excited for this new chapter in our lives. I feel so grateful for this little babe inside of me. I thank Heavenly Father everyday for this sweet little miracle. I am so in love with baby already. We both are. To my sweet friends who are still waiting for a little one, please know that I love you. I think about you and pray for all of you daily. xoxoxo
Baby Meadows, we can't wait to meet you!